I Feel..

November 1, 2013
 1:18 am



I feel so defeated, I am a strong person but yet I am so weak. All throughout my life I have tried to fit in but always fell short in that category. I know I should never have wanted to fit in and that I should just be happy about how I am as a person but can a person truly get over that?

I mean come on I am 18 years old, a freshman in college and I still can't seem to make an impression on people so they would remember who I am. My twin brother, on the other hand, has to literally do nothing.

No matter how hard I try it just never works out. I never fitted in at elementary school, high school, now not even college. My own church cant even accept me for who I am. I mean its pretty sad when I find out that my "church family" has been spreading rumors about me that I was pregnant, and it got back to my mom. I mean seriously I think I would have known if I was pregnant.

Life just seems so much to handle but yet I have so much to prove not only to the people who said I couldn't make anything of myself because they can go screw themselves. I have so much to prove to myself.

So yes, I am not "welcomed" in a lot of places, I maybe "weird" to the people who think that they are not, and yes I admit I even maybe "anti" sometimes, but I am unique and I have a lot to prove!

    ~Zamora~